Sometimes when you wish for something so bad, you make it come true. It just, happens. And it's not like there's a magical fairy godmother out there who's working in your favor, it's what's inside of you that makes your dream a reality.
Day Four:
I think that if I keep trying physically and mentally to make everything go great and smoothly and wonderful, the itty bitty part of me (that I fight with constantly, on a daily basis) will ruin everything. That if I try so hard to make things right, things will go very wrong.
Today was another off day. Already having second thoughts (oh my god, not about marrying Andrew of course) about a lot of things.
Who will stick it out with me until the end?
Besides Andrew, it's got to be me.
I brought my ring in, finally. I feel like saying my ring size is like announcing I've lost weight or something.
"Oh, I'm not a size 7, but rather a size 5. Guess smoking all of those cigarettes and drinking all that pop has finally paid off".
It's ridiculous, really. Nonetheless, my ring is at Kay's and hopefully already on its way to downsizing. Literally, not in worth or beauty though. It's due to be finished at the latest, May 10th. Even though April is winding down to an end, May seems so so so far away! It kind of also makes my engagement feel a little nonexistent which is so stupid.
Even without the ring, I was explaining to a Canadian at work today that I moved down here to Arizona in August of 09 with my boyfr- fiance. And was congratulated sincerely. That was cool.
Here's to more constant wishes on eyelashes and at 11:11. But nothing will compare to the power I find in myself to make them all come true.
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